the heart

quite unusual how the heart can hold on to experiences that You think You have so successfully moved passed....

how Your blood pressure can distinguish the intricacies of how deep an experience has reached into You

how difficult it is to let go of what happens....

and how intentional every fiber of the body is....






I got really excited today
and it felt like cool breath breathing from my heart

it didn't feel like I could control it in the moment

it rushed over me all in an instance



on the other side
i also was unsettled some
and it was so unusual how it surges similarly


in both instances....
every beat seem to pulse an emotion through me that I thought I was through with....
randomly
but not so random
just consistently

and every now and then I would just notice the build up of the diligence of this heart of mine.....



so influential that little metronome

so deceptive



i'm glad that this time i was reminded some how to breathe
to come back home
and to long after clarity over emotion

that emotion should not control me
yet not disappear

that i may not be so easily swayed
yet that i may not be un-atuned

that life may have a ear to listen
but not a soul to unglue....




dont trust the heart
but do keep it employed

for it is an ocean of wealth